This morning I’m in a reflective and sad mood, thinking of the past. Drenched in regret, knowing that there will never be a you and me. Music has always been a big part of my life. It was a part of ours. It always helped me through the rough, tough and darkest hours. The sadder the song, the more I saw myself in it. Someone else knew how it felt to go through what I was going through. They put it in words in a way I never could. Partners in misery, the songs were mine for you.
The line, there’s a curse on my heart, I’ll never love again, hits me hard. It’s so raw and deep, an open wound that bleeds memories. I will never see you again, Alabama Highway took you back home. I can visit your stone. But it wasn’t me who was there with you when you returned. It crushes me. I saw a white rose by your grave. That tore me.
The artists I have picked won’t be known by most, but they are some of my favorites. I never tire of them.
I believe you wanted me, but this says it all; you never wanted me. I gave everything of me to you, but all you did was take. I don’t remember you giving. It didn’t matter. I thought I was the one. You told me that I was, but you never meant a word. I hung on what you said, knowing the ship was sinking, and you’d let me go. That I had to go.
I’ve found myself doing just that; standing there thinking, how I still want you, and nobody else. I still hear your voice, and yes you made me a fool of me. That’s the price of love. I would do it all over again, and again for just five minutes.
Love hurts, well it shouldn’t, but it always seems to bring a lot of pain. We used to listen to Gram, and Steve together. Two good ole Southern boys.
I let myself be your martyr. I hung on your lovers cross until I couldn’t take it any more. I wonder if she was a martyr too. Did she cry as much as I did for you? Was she your Joan of Arc? If I would have kept playing your martyr, where would we be today? IF I could go back, I would, because love has no pride.
I built my world around you, that was so true. You were my world. I was afraid of changing too. I held on as long as I could, but I had to let you go, even though deep down inside I never wanted to. I always, always thought we would get back together.
You were my first and you cut me deepest. I tried to love again, but I only see you. I only feel you. All these years, it’s always been you. Did you ever think of me at all, why did you have to call me after we split? That made it even harder, hearing your voice. Was it a game? You sounded sad, but I’m sure you cheered back up. You had her by your side.
No, I can’t help it if I’m still in love with you. Was she happy by your side? What did she do, that I didn’t?
You could get away with anything, just because I was in love with you.
I can still remember the day we met. I can see the look on your face. Once you left, I remember going back to that place, and just looking at the tree that you told me you had fell out of. I hoped that there was a trace of you left there. I could go there now, and still feel the same way.
I did my best, but I don’t think you even tried. It was a beautiful lie. I do pretend to fly back to you.
There were SO many nights, you did make me cry and so many lonely nights. Yes, you were off getting high, among other more painful things. No, you never said goodbye, so much unsaid. I don’t think you ever missed me. It’s amazing how fast you forgot me. I never forgot you. You said I was stuck with you forever. You were right. You never leave, even though you’re long gone. Did you ever love her, did you love anyone? I just wanted to know why you did what you did, and I will never have your answer. Would you even tell me?
No he never will hear me crying. I did cry a river for you. I still do.
How many times did I watch the sun come up, waiting for you to come home. You did lead me on. Moonlit warm nights alone . I believed you, I was only fooling myself. I hated you for what you did and didn’t do, but I couldn’t stop loving you.
There were times I would forget for awhile, but those times didn’t last and then you’d come creeping back into my memories, you’re just buried to deep. What a fool, that so true. It’s probably been more than a million tears. I love you today, tomorrow and yesterday.
It doesn’t matter anymore, but it does and always will. You went your way and I went mine. The last time I saw you, you were using the name you never used when I was with you. Did changing your name, change you, did it change the past? A fresh start for you. I couldn’t start again.
I’m always going to be falling to pieces. I don’t want to see you. I only want to see you. I don’t want to hear your name, that’s all I hear is your name. I hear your voice, that doesn’t go away.